To My Baby
by Karen Ledbetter
I knew of you before your birth,I loved you before we ever met.I prayed for you day and night,Thankful your birth mother had chosen life.
The waiting was so anxious and hard,You already held a place in my heart.Weeks went by, and sometimes I cried.Finally one day came a call with good news.
Tears of joy fell on my cheekThe first time I held you,Precious Baby, so tiny and sweet.I'm thankful your birth mother had chosen life.
Rocking and singing sweet lullabies,You've brought much joy to so many lives.I'll love you forever, sweet little one.Memories to treasure, a new life begun.
© Copyright Karen Ledbetter

Good Friday.

102 days to go! Tomorrow is Good Friday! It will be a good day.

Gratitude

I saw this today... I read it... And felt there was nothing else to say.

Had the best day today with Finn - these days are special. I watch him grow and I watch him learn. I'm so lucky that I'm allowed to be his mom. He truly is a gift. I felt very grateful.

The ocean is made of drops.

Today is March 24th 2010 - 110 days to go !

Food for thought.

There is an affliction quietly and insidiously affecting us that crosses all lines of age, gender and race. It began when we were young and learned that in order to fit in with our families we had to ignore our own needs, stay silent, follow along, and give away our power. As adults this syndrome continues to rob us of our ability to ask directly for what we need and want and drives us to violate ourselves and our own integrity. When we're in its grips, we contort ourselves to fit in, to belong, and to ensure our status as a "good person". In a moment of desperation and powerlessness, we forsake ourselves in order to avoid confrontation and the mere possibility of rejection. This is the dis-ease of trying to be liked, being nice, seeking acceptance, and trying to please others as a strategy - as a way to feel safe in the world and worthy in our own skin. What is even more important to recognize is that seeking the approval of others is a way to avoid how deeply we disapprove of ourselves. The feared rejection of another is actually an outward reflection of how we have already rejected certain aspects of ourselves.

TRUST

I was thinking today about the amount of TRUST that goes into an adoption plan.

The TRUST that we do the best we can for this child. Keep our promises and be the best parents that we know how.

And the TRUST that once your heart goes into the idea and dream of this baby joining your family...it really happens.

Two strangers TRUSTING with all their hearts that one of the most powerful decisions that they will make in their lives...is in each others hands.

In the end we won't be strangers at all... we will be "the one person" that made the other's dream come true...in 2 very different ways.

TRUST. One little word with a huge meaning. One of the most important things in this world. Something that is hard to find, something that is broken often. But when 2 people TRUST...amazing things can happen.

Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. - Elizabeth Stone