Today is March 11 2010!
There are 123 days till the due date of the baby. Sometimes that feels long, sometimes that feels around the corner. I struggle with what to get, and how to get ready. I don't have the physical signs of having a baby. This baby is growing in my heart and in my mind everyday, moment by moment.
Today was the first time I bought something for the baby. I bought baskets for the room. I put them in the trunk of the car and then brought them into the house. I justified the fact that they were on sale and a color that would go with the house...if this baby doesn’t happen for us I could always use them for something else.
There are 123 days till the due date of the baby. Sometimes that feels long, sometimes that feels around the corner. I struggle with what to get, and how to get ready. I don't have the physical signs of having a baby. This baby is growing in my heart and in my mind everyday, moment by moment.
Today was the first time I bought something for the baby. I bought baskets for the room. I put them in the trunk of the car and then brought them into the house. I justified the fact that they were on sale and a color that would go with the house...if this baby doesn’t happen for us I could always use them for something else.
This is what my mind goes through every day. I think of all the little things I will need. I don't get them because I don't want to get ahead of myself, or show any signs that my heart is aching to nest and plan for the birth of this baby. The reality is I think I just have to take a chance, a leap of faith and believe that this feels right for a reason and life is a risk...even when it comes the to the birth of an innocent baby.
Tomorrow it will be 122 more days :)
No comments:
Post a Comment